In my recent post I was a bit off on what I wrote and what I meant. Cancer is always in the back of our minds when we see a doctor for a problem For some exams not too much, like today I saw an Orthopedic PA for a cortisone shot in my thumbs.
Cancer was not in my mind today. But for each visit with my Radiation Oncology group Cancer is on mind. From past experience, with my first Cancer,time does diminish that level of concern to then lowest level possible. With my recent Cancer I am years away from coming close to that.
Hope to hear from others about their thoughts and fears.
I seem to be reflective more as I age. Not the what if, should I have mental anguish but more like; how will this effect me in the future?
As much as many of us want to deny that Cancer is always on our minds it is in the back of everything when we don’t feel we need to see a doctor. Especially the Oncology doctor or medicals.
So how do I handle it? With a resolute feeling of What is is what is. Cannot change my past but I can change my future!
I would love to hear from you on how you feel about this.
Today will be busy. Even though I am collecting retirements I still work and even have two jobs. Teaching is in my blood so I am putting together a plan for a local business to increase the workforce skills. My other job keeps me busy with paperwork. Not my love of work but it pays well and is easy.
How does this relate to Life you might ask?
Keeping active mentally along with physically is important.
Mixing it up is even more so.
Activity keeps us going.
Love the day and see you later.
The time has come for me to commit to this Blog. My travels with Cancer has been more like an Odyssey so the Title of my book has dropped the travel and replaced it with Odyssey.
Cancer did strike twice and did scare me, us, but writing about it has helped me cope and hopefully others also.
Gal is to have my book published in the next few months. My Odyssey with Prostate Cancer title feels better. My full goal is to help the next man’s partner understand what he is going thru.
I will post some excerpts in the next few days and try to explain some of what I mean.
When first diagnosed was told 93% chance of my Prostate Cancer returning in 2-5 years. PSA at diagnosis was 20.61 but the last visit with my Rad Onco was 0.27 and she said: “I am no longer worried about you.”
Feel great but knees shot. Old age, wear and tear, an offshoot of hormone therapy?
I don’t care, I am here and love life, family and my wife.
When asked how I am I almost always say “Could always be worse” Have been but positive attitude makes it better.
Here we are, Novenber 3rd, 20017. Qnother Great Day! Really!
As I usually put it “I’m on the right side of the grass and know it”
Now only two more Lupron shots then the slow return to “normal” hormones.
With my PSA last tested at 0.27 and the hope the next,this
December, will be lower too, I am very happy!!! YEA.
Still get tired easily, still get hot flushes, night sweats every night but all good.
I have avoied all the usual expected signs of Cancer and even,unfortunatly, gained some weight. Lupron does that.
All medical types have been great in interactions and concerns about me the person not the cancer patient.
Side note then have to go: I have spoken with 4-5 medicals about erections. All but one have been female. At first was a bit odd but if they ask I answer honestly.
But is weird to think that I have been asked questions about my erections, or lack ther of, by women. Never in my life did I expect to have open honest conversations about that. Never.
Have to backtrack to best understand my excited title. Back at my initial diagnosis meeting for planning with my Radiation Oncologist, lovely lady, she told me that there was a 93% chance of a recurrence of my Prostate Cancer. 93%? not good odds. Scary bad actually.
Well in late September, after looking at my 0.27 PSA, she told me she is “not worried anymore”. NOT WORRIED! The best news I have had in decades – right up there with my now wife saying yes when I asked her if she would marry me.
Ok so now it August and later this month I go for, what will be my 20th Hormone shot of 24. Yeah!!!
Drains me of energy, hurts my joints and sleep much closer to 10 hours.
Maybe that’s why the Insurance company classifies it as Chemotherapy.
As a side note, so far other than office visits (many) this whole Travel with Prostate Cancer has cost us less than $200.
Week good when not tired. If tired just slows me down, so not a bad week: just slow.
If there is someone reading this that has thoughts….please comment.
All for now.
Today I begin my Blog on My Travels with Cancer. Need to say Travels because I first had the Cancer diagnosis in 1975 and with another Cancer 40 years later in late 2015.
Please understand that my writing is more like a conversation than what a professional writer does.
You could say I was lucky with the first Cancer, testicular, because after surgery, then radiation, all in a rush, rush manner I survived 40 years without issues. But luck with Cancer? Only those that have dealt with Cancer personally can understand how silly that is. You are forced to admit you are mortal.
Cancer is never off your mind, ever. Yes after 10, 20, 30 years or more not so much but it never leaves your mind. Got married, raised 2 kids, have a grandson and of course a loving wife. Close to actual retirement and then – !BAM
Prostate Cancer, Stage 2, T2c to be specific. Aggressive on top of that! Cancer again thrusts its blade into my life.
Those of us that have 2 diagnosis of different Cancer, years apart, seperated by a life really, might have a different way of looking at the second one.
Yes – still life altering, Yes – still scary but for me this time there were decesions on treatments including the one that befuddles me – do nothing but monitor. Surgery or Radiation are the two I had to choose from. There were others but not for my stage.
More to follow!
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